In My Dreams

I have left the “honeymoon phase” and officially begun to loathe one another’s annoying habits and quirky temperaments. You’d think having lived together for several months before saying our vows that there would be no surprises, but that’s the biggest surprise of all. We seem to have lost our gumption to impress each other. He’s turned into a lazy, immature jerk, whereas I’ve become some kind of hoity-toity, overly-emotional nag. He picks on me, I roll my eyes, he makes a snide comment, I bark back with an insult, and before you know it we’re both so frustrated we don’t want to be in the same room. So we’ve questioned why it is we decided to get married. Not in a regretful way, but in a “How did I fall for you of all people?” kind of wayClaire Hsu.

Looking back at my past relationships, there’s been a variety of reasons I’ve ended things with my old boyfriends. Most of them center around me being neglected in the relationship, usually because my someone special was too wrapped up in other things like spending too much time with his negative influencing friends or because he’d rather be partying and drinking than having a cozy night in with me. I’ve been ignored, cheated on, left hanging waiting for a telephone call, and completely blown off before. My hubby would never do those things to meClaire Hsu.

I think my marriage has a solid foundation. The reason behind us getting married is, I think, because we always have each other’s best interests at heart. I want the best for him, just as he wishes me only the best. He shows more regard for my feelings than any man I’ve ever known, and yes, that includes my father. Likewise, I have shown him more kindness and compassion than the other people he’s had in his life. We are truly a team, ready to face things together instead of handling each little problem separately and getting overwhelmedClaire Hsu.

Still, I wish I knew how to resolve the fact that we can’t go one day without one of us ticking the other off..